Beushausen was receiving 100,000 hits a week on her blog at the height of the hoax and says that she could not get herself to tell the truth. She would write such entries as:
I remember the very first time I dreamt that I lost her; it was months ago, and it was the worst dream of my life.
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I remember how I woke up in a cold sweat, and how before that night I had never felt anything close to that. It left me shaken.
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The dream became a recurrent one, and the shaken feeling, did not lessen as the nightmare repeated itself.
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Months ago, my days were spent in total fear. If I didn’t feel April move, I freaked out, always prematurely. I was scared… I was anxious… I thought every kick could be her last. And then when her heart rate started to drop, I lost it.
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I of course, was not prepared to meet her, but my mindset was there, in ways. I believed the time was close. I thought a lot about her passing inutero. I dreamt about it. I guess you could as far as saying that I expected it.
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And then, what I did not expect to happen, did.
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Days, weeks, months later, April is sitting pretty in my little belly. Safe… Growing… Alive.
The truth came after a million hits when she posted a picture of the baby April Rose. It was immediately recognized by a doll collector as a life-like doll “Reborn doll” that she had at home. Various sites like “AprilRoseisafake.com” sprang up.
Beushausen does not appear to have solicited money, which would raise serious criminal questions. However, she does appear to have received unsolicited gifts. It is not clear if there will be a criminal investigation.